Last chance workout!

Last chance to shed the extra lbs before we have to weigh ourselves. I am going to go to the gym and use a machine I have never used and join a class I know nothing about. Okay, one or the other, I should only do one at a time so, I am going to pick a new machine. Tomorrow I will pick a new class to join. Stability ball anyone? This competition is fun! More motivation then competition and that is what I like. Happy workout everyone.

Narcoleptic like state.

I have been feeling narcoleptic this week. If I sit down for more then 5 minutes my eyes roll back in my head and I start to nod off. I had been doing it before I added new medication but not as much as now. At 10:30am today, I finally could sit or lay with no trouble. I think it might be a lack of sleep at night. I have been averaging 3-6 hours a night but I know I need at least 7-9 hours. I do my very best in the night hours to get 7-9 hours, it will happen, I am sure of it, the question now is when. When I feel sleepy in the day, if I am home, I go to bed and normally get anywhere from 30 minutes-2 and 1/2 hours of sleep. Its always between the hours of 12pm and 2:30pm. "My Siesta."

It took getting FAT to heal.

In my opinion it took getting FAT for 10 years to truly heal my broken soul. That and I fell in LOVE 10 years ago. He has stuck by me through thick and thin and I Love him for it.
I was thin for the first 20 years of my life so I know what it feels like inside to be a skinny person. By the way, ( it is also lonely ) anyway, I knew how strong physically I felt but mentally I had the brain of a teenager. My brain stayed that way until...well I started reading about this competition.
I had a friend of mine go through it and for 9 months I watched read and possibly/ maybe helped her find herself in the end. I cant help but to think she is now doing the same for me. Even if she's not, she is somehow.
It took becoming Fat and living through the day to day of it all, that finely go me to see...YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE. I now think of myself as skinny...my body hasn't caught up YET
but my brain tells me...yes you are, yes you can and yes Kelli, you will do this!

The biggest loser Fall 2009 t.v. show

I made sure I took my hour long walk today, I wasn't going to because it was too hot...no more excuses. I just did it earlier in the morning and broke the time up. Half hour...rest half hour so I could volunteer my time at a local Elementary school. Then the half hour walk home. I walked fast and was drenched sweat after both half hours. Wednesday is now my walk to the school and back. I highly recommend volunteer work.

stress

Right this very second I have no stress, as I go through my day I find that sometime stress follows. I am sure we all know stress is a killer on losing weight. As a rule I do the best that I can to try to eliminate any stresses I might have. I have been doing well in that I average 2 pounds a week just keeping the stress to a minimum . My mind starts to wonder at the prospect of losing more at one time then I remember...2 pounds is a lot for a week when doing "this" by yourself.
With the help of a twice a week trainer...Not my personal trainer just someone that works at the gym. Lets call her E. She sometimes will spill advice my way. With the loveing help of my father...My actual father...and now I know my father in heaven, I will and can do this. If fat equals stress and stress equals fat, then I want it out for good.

Seeing my way out before it happens...

I am not going to let it stop me. Now is the time to force myself to exercise. Get the endorphins flowing. How do I know I am starting to feel sadness? My appetite is low and the fact that I have no energy plus wanting to cut myself down when given the chance too. Instead of giving in to that I have told myself just to say thank you when I receive a complement and that is a very good thing to do. I am out of ways to keep myself out of a deep depression. I can see it coming and I am in the process of building that big brick wall to keep it from coming. I just wish the depression had breaks, it would make it easier to stop it from breaking through.

Its here!

Our new camera is here...more to follow. :)

Breaking the bad food habit :) !

If I had one bad habit in life that would be food. We all need to eat but we all do NOT need to eat junk. Produce is NOT junk. Anything I eat now has to have produce in it. If I continue to eat produce with every meal I am bound to do something good for my body.
I have learned a new habit. Do not sit on your backside longer then an hour unless you are power napping. The key in breaking a bad habit is to create a new good one in its place.
It takes two months for me to break a habit and two weeks to create a new one. Officially I will be breaking my fast food habit October 4th, 2009.

I am getting my own new Camera tomorrow!

Call it an early present from Rich or you can call it a replacement for the one I lost only this time it is an actual camera. It should arrive tomorrow so everyone should expect new pictures of me tomorrow and pictures of things that help to motivate me. ( just a warning) :) Watch me shrink!!! :) :) :)

"MissKelli"

I walked today, used my brain and walked some more. Okay, the brain part is a little bit of a stretch as I walked to a local school 30 minutes walking distance from my house and for the next 30 minutes I made sure 3 kids knew the difference between upper and lower case letters. 2 did one was having some trouble. Then after I was done I walked home.
Walking with a purpose besides weight loss...now that's what I call...Killing two birds with one stone. :) No pun intended!!

For 12 bucks yesterday I bought myself a brand new dress from Marshall's. Lets just call that a splurge...for me, that is a lot to spend. I love the dress, it feels good to the touch, it is light weight...I can use it in so many other aspects in my life. It was a good find. One of the many things I have been learning while working this program is that by loving myself I am loving everyone else too. You have got to take care of #1 first before anything else. #1 can be a higher power or just yourself...right now, I am still caught in the middle of that. GOD or Myself. If God equals Love then Loving myself = God. Does that make any scents? It makes perfect scents to me. And while I get to know "Jehovah" through my study's I also get to know myself a little more each day.

quicksand...please don't let me "Fall" now!

Today I feel my legs are in quicksand...and 10 miles away lies my next goal...its a small one but I know I can at least reach it. My goal for the month is, walking with old friends from high school and seeing the scale go from what it is now to 199lbs. It sounds like I am taking on a lot but if I could just drop 15 lbs by the 1st, I will have made it for the summer. O.k. maybe I can call this my long term/short term-ish goal.
The meds seem to be winning over my mind...(making me feel lazy) this is where I need the motivation. My doc kinda sorta in his own little way, urged me to take the weekend to sleep...I got 8 hours last night, on one more pill I take at night. I think this is the first time this month and last month that I got more then 6 hours. It is amazing how just sleeping makes me feel. I had forgotten. I would like to think all the girls publicly for there support. All my friends for there help...you know who you are and if you don't I am talking about you. As long as I have my girls, I will be alright. By the FALL I want to be at least 10lbs lighter then my current weight. September 22, 2009. We will be welcoming Fall.

meds and me

I went to see my Dr. today (mental health) and got put on another drug. It is very frustrating but at least this new one...ABILIFY...doesn't cause weight gain. I am glad to be getting the help I need and I continue to be very positive about my daily workouts...I hope to try something new today at the gym. I am not going to let this new fact be my excuse...I am going to get back up and continue forward.

A side view with my frogs...This was 5 days ago...when I get a camera I will take an even newer picture...WATCH me Shrink...my belly!

This was me on the 5th of September...that is Joey, she works out with me! Just from looking at myself, I know I have even changed from that picture. I am going to have to borrow a camera again and take more. I had to make it black and white because my eyes looked like my cats! LOL!!!

Nine

It is our Labor day and we are gonna go see the movie NINE. Today is 9/9/09 We figure it is appropriate. Let our 3 day weekend began. No food just water or unsweetened tea for us. After...the rest is up to your imagination. :) Update... We ended up seeing it the next day and when I say we I mean him...I feel asleep during the movie...That was the first time I did that ever. I guess I better rent it once it comes out. I managed to see the first and last part of the move. This movie was an all CG I movie. That is really all I know about it. :) The outing to another town was fun!

I dropped another pant size!

Tomorrow I plan to try a new workout...eat a new meal I have never tried plus, spread inspiration to one person via, real life,blog life or BOTH. Every time I drop a pant size, I change my workouts..I want to throw my body off. I am cooking tonight...I like everything but I am cooking for one more...any suggestions...those of you who have kids or a very picky man that eats like a kid? I am open to suggestions....I will let you know what I decided. :)

In this picture I thought I would look smaller...nope...this is the picture that made me want to change my lifestyle for good...NO MORE EXCUSES!!! (watch me shrink)

This was me last October....

Let the motivating begin...

This is my motivation frog I call her Mo. If she helps you in any way let feel free to download the picture...she wants to help all the people she can.