Last chance workout!

Last chance to shed the extra lbs before we have to weigh ourselves. I am going to go to the gym and use a machine I have never used and join a class I know nothing about. Okay, one or the other, I should only do one at a time so, I am going to pick a new machine. Tomorrow I will pick a new class to join. Stability ball anyone? This competition is fun! More motivation then competition and that is what I like. Happy workout everyone.

Narcoleptic like state.

I have been feeling narcoleptic this week. If I sit down for more then 5 minutes my eyes roll back in my head and I start to nod off. I had been doing it before I added new medication but not as much as now. At 10:30am today, I finally could sit or lay with no trouble. I think it might be a lack of sleep at night. I have been averaging 3-6 hours a night but I know I need at least 7-9 hours. I do my very best in the night hours to get 7-9 hours, it will happen, I am sure of it, the question now is when. When I feel sleepy in the day, if I am home, I go to bed and normally get anywhere from 30 minutes-2 and 1/2 hours of sleep. Its always between the hours of 12pm and 2:30pm. "My Siesta."

It took getting FAT to heal.

In my opinion it took getting FAT for 10 years to truly heal my broken soul. That and I fell in LOVE 10 years ago. He has stuck by me through thick and thin and I Love him for it.
I was thin for the first 20 years of my life so I know what it feels like inside to be a skinny person. By the way, ( it is also lonely ) anyway, I knew how strong physically I felt but mentally I had the brain of a teenager. My brain stayed that way until...well I started reading about this competition.
I had a friend of mine go through it and for 9 months I watched read and possibly/ maybe helped her find herself in the end. I cant help but to think she is now doing the same for me. Even if she's not, she is somehow.
It took becoming Fat and living through the day to day of it all, that finely go me to see...YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE. I now think of myself as skinny...my body hasn't caught up YET
but my brain tells me...yes you are, yes you can and yes Kelli, you will do this!

The biggest loser Fall 2009 t.v. show

I made sure I took my hour long walk today, I wasn't going to because it was too hot...no more excuses. I just did it earlier in the morning and broke the time up. Half hour...rest half hour so I could volunteer my time at a local Elementary school. Then the half hour walk home. I walked fast and was drenched sweat after both half hours. Wednesday is now my walk to the school and back. I highly recommend volunteer work.

stress

Right this very second I have no stress, as I go through my day I find that sometime stress follows. I am sure we all know stress is a killer on losing weight. As a rule I do the best that I can to try to eliminate any stresses I might have. I have been doing well in that I average 2 pounds a week just keeping the stress to a minimum . My mind starts to wonder at the prospect of losing more at one time then I remember...2 pounds is a lot for a week when doing "this" by yourself.
With the help of a twice a week trainer...Not my personal trainer just someone that works at the gym. Lets call her E. She sometimes will spill advice my way. With the loveing help of my father...My actual father...and now I know my father in heaven, I will and can do this. If fat equals stress and stress equals fat, then I want it out for good.

Seeing my way out before it happens...

I am not going to let it stop me. Now is the time to force myself to exercise. Get the endorphins flowing. How do I know I am starting to feel sadness? My appetite is low and the fact that I have no energy plus wanting to cut myself down when given the chance too. Instead of giving in to that I have told myself just to say thank you when I receive a complement and that is a very good thing to do. I am out of ways to keep myself out of a deep depression. I can see it coming and I am in the process of building that big brick wall to keep it from coming. I just wish the depression had breaks, it would make it easier to stop it from breaking through.

Its here!

Our new camera is here...more to follow. :)