No more excuses!

2009-11-01T08:56:00.000-08:00

30 and loving every minute of it!

2009-10-26T12:30:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to ME!!! I am 30 today and I am loving every minute of it. I have gotten everything I have asked for and more. I have finally made it out of my 20's! 11 more days until my wedding day, I can hardly wait. I Love the beautiful engagement ring I was given yesterday. I can't wait to start my life with Rich forever by my side.

Last day at 29 but 30 looks even brighter.

2009-10-25T07:46:00.000-07:00

The lifestyle change is doing me well. I went to my PA yesterday and she said all of my test are good. Little to no fat in my blood and good blood pressure. Whatever she tested me for and I forget now she said she has never seen a test so good. I pointed out to her, (as if she couldn't see) that I was still fat. She just kinda made a face and said, "well your blood test is good." Very good news. I may not look on the outside how I feel on the inside but very soon I will. The pounds seem to be melting off with little effort. If I give it a little more maybe just maybe I will see a little faster result. We are going out of town today to pick up my rings. I am so excited I can barely contain myself. I will be 30 tomorrow. Finally out of my 20's. Time to start a new chapter in my life and this time I believe I have got it right.

Gains and losses

2009-10-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

I am gaining a husband but losing a girl friend. I should be happy but I only feel it around Rich. I Love him so much. People say its personal when you get married. It's something between family. "Don't feel too bad that your best friend is mad at you right now." I went and got the book, Don't sweat the small stuff...and it's all small stuff. Its helping. One good thing about this situation is, when I am upset, I don't have an apatite. I am eating way less then I was. I now have to remind myself to eat because my stomach isn't telling me too. Food now taste bland to me. Maybe this is why I don't want to eat. I swear I could eat a card board box and tell myself its a pizza and my taste buds wouldn't know a difference. My life right now is full of love and I do feel it. I feel his love right to the core of me and you gals also help me see the light every day that I log on and read your stories. I know my life will move on without my best girl friend in my life but I am not yet ready. Everything happens for a reason and if this is what was always meant to be I guess I am going to have to go with the flow. I may just be in mourning over the loss that is why I can't eat...or...maybe and hopefully not, the darkness is starting to hit and this is just the first sign. Whatever the case may be, I need to call my Doctor for help. Hopefully, he will have some answers for me because I am out of answers. Now all I need to do is bring myself to call him.

Motivation

2009-10-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

Besides all the gals in this competition and the fact that I am so sick and tired of being a big girl, I finally have found some other things that get me up and onto my stationary bike at home. I watch and dvr my favorite funny lady (Ellen DeGeneres) and for that hour while I am laughing I am also getting my exercise. Yesterday was particularly motivating because she had on Allison Sweeny (sp?) You know, the host of The biggest Loser. As I worked out they were talking about how good it is to workout and how they were proud of the people on the show for changing there lives. I really only meant to spend 45 minutes riding but was so motivated I spent an extra 10 minutes riding. I find that motivation comes in a lot of forms. Mostly from the gals in this competition but I have also found other things that help me to get up and get moving. Watching my favorite daytime talk show while on a stationary bike is just one thing. Now all I have to do is figure out how to dance while on the bike and I will be set. :)

It's raining it's pouring...

2009-10-13T11:39:00.000-07:00

It's windy, it's pouring down rain and the air is crisp a fresh. I personally love this weather. I plan to ride inside today but I love this weather, I find it cleansing and refreshing. Luckly for me the weather is forecast to last a couple more days. To me, this weather is a reason to smile. I just hope that everyone is safe today and do their workouts inside if it is raining like this where you live.

2009-10-10T14:09:00.000-07:00

This is me back in Fall 2002. I was at my heaviest 252 lbs. I am a work in progress and biggest loser blog seems to be the best place for me... I got on the scale this morning and was 221.5 lbs. My weight fluctuates by 7 pounds so I never really know how much I am. At one point I got on the scale and it said 218 so...anyway, just thought I would share.

I was cleaning and found a

2009-10-10T10:11:00.001-07:00

I was cleaning the other day and I found a picture of myself from back in 2002. Dang, I have come a long way since then. Would anyone like to see the picture? I will take a picture of the pic and post it...only if I get a response. :)

Abilify Begone

2009-10-09T18:50:00.001-07:00

My Doc took me off Abilify Wednesday after I made him aware of all the side affects that were happening to me. We are just going to stick with the other meds, the abilify should be out in 2-5 days. With my Lithium up by 150mg and me taking 450mg in slow release in the morning and then 600mg at night with Serequil I am sure to be fine. So goodbye Abilify and hello Sanity. The Mania has left the building. :)

2009-10-08T16:15:00.000-07:00

2009-10-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

Me again, this time you can see all of me. :) If you go to one of my first posts you will see me (in black and white) one month ago. I can see the changes, yet, I have seen the changes everyday since I started this program. Thank you everyone who is and continues to support me as I continue to shrink and give no excuses why I can't give it my all.

2009-10-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

This is an after picture of me on 10-6-2009.

I never thought.

2009-10-03T20:49:00.000-07:00

I never thought it would feel good to lose...but it does! With the support of my biggest loser blog buddies I feel like the Richest person around. I am so blessed to have a good group of girls around me supporting me every step of the way. I only wish more would follow. I continue to find more and more of you girls as inspiration and to me that is key to help me with my weight lose. I will do it, I am doing it and I will reach my goal. Thank you to all who follow me and to all that comment. Your comments are like gold. Congratulations all losers! For any who didn't lose...keep working at it and you too can be a loser!

2009-10-01T11:47:00.000-07:00

I'm a loser! :)

Last chance workout!

2009-09-30T10:31:00.000-07:00

Last chance to shed the extra lbs before we have to weigh ourselves. I am going to go to the gym and use a machine I have never used and join a class I know nothing about. Okay, one or the other, I should only do one at a time so, I am going to pick a new machine. Tomorrow I will pick a new class to join. Stability ball anyone? This competition is fun! More motivation then competition and that is what I like. Happy workout everyone.

Narcoleptic like state.

2009-09-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling narcoleptic this week. If I sit down for more then 5 minutes my eyes roll back in my head and I start to nod off. I had been doing it before I added new medication but not as much as now. At 10:30am today, I finally could sit or lay with no trouble. I think it might be a lack of sleep at night. I have been averaging 3-6 hours a night but I know I need at least 7-9 hours. I do my very best in the night hours to get 7-9 hours, it will happen, I am sure of it, the question now is when. When I feel sleepy in the day, if I am home, I go to bed and normally get anywhere from 30 minutes-2 and 1/2 hours of sleep. Its always between the hours of 12pm and 2:30pm. "My Siesta."

It took getting FAT to heal.

2009-09-24T14:36:00.000-07:00

In my opinion it took getting FAT for 10 years to truly heal my broken soul. That and I fell in LOVE 10 years ago. He has stuck by me through thick and thin and I Love him for it.
I was thin for the first 20 years of my life so I know what it feels like inside to be a skinny person. By the way, ( it is also lonely ) anyway, I knew how strong physically I felt but mentally I had the brain of a teenager. My brain stayed that way until...well I started reading about this competition.
I had a friend of mine go through it and for 9 months I watched read and possibly/ maybe helped her find herself in the end. I cant help but to think she is now doing the same for me. Even if she's not, she is somehow.
It took becoming Fat and living through the day to day of it all, that finely go me to see...YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE. I now think of myself as skinny...my body hasn't caught up YET
but my brain tells me...yes you are, yes you can and yes Kelli, you will do this!

The biggest loser Fall 2009 t.v. show

2009-09-23T16:51:00.001-07:00

I made sure I took my hour long walk today, I wasn't going to because it was too hot...no more excuses. I just did it earlier in the morning and broke the time up. Half hour...rest half hour so I could volunteer my time at a local Elementary school. Then the half hour walk home. I walked fast and was drenched sweat after both half hours. Wednesday is now my walk to the school and back. I highly recommend volunteer work.

stress

2009-09-23T06:18:00.001-07:00

Right this very second I have no stress, as I go through my day I find that sometime stress follows. I am sure we all know stress is a killer on losing weight. As a rule I do the best that I can to try to eliminate any stresses I might have. I have been doing well in that I average 2 pounds a week just keeping the stress to a minimum . My mind starts to wonder at the prospect of losing more at one time then I remember...2 pounds is a lot for a week when doing "this" by yourself.
With the help of a twice a week trainer...Not my personal trainer just someone that works at the gym. Lets call her E. She sometimes will spill advice my way. With the loveing help of my father...My actual father...and now I know my father in heaven, I will and can do this. If fat equals stress and stress equals fat, then I want it out for good.

Seeing my way out before it happens...

2009-09-21T10:42:00.000-07:00

I am not going to let it stop me. Now is the time to force myself to exercise. Get the endorphins flowing. How do I know I am starting to feel sadness? My appetite is low and the fact that I have no energy plus wanting to cut myself down when given the chance too. Instead of giving in to that I have told myself just to say thank you when I receive a complement and that is a very good thing to do. I am out of ways to keep myself out of a deep depression. I can see it coming and I am in the process of building that big brick wall to keep it from coming. I just wish the depression had breaks, it would make it easier to stop it from breaking through.

Its here!

2009-09-17T13:20:00.000-07:00

Our new camera is here...more to follow. :)

Breaking the bad food habit :) !

2009-09-17T04:44:00.000-07:00

If I had one bad habit in life that would be food. We all need to eat but we all do NOT need to eat junk. Produce is NOT junk. Anything I eat now has to have produce in it. If I continue to eat produce with every meal I am bound to do something good for my body.
I have learned a new habit. Do not sit on your backside longer then an hour unless you are power napping. The key in breaking a bad habit is to create a new good one in its place.
It takes two months for me to break a habit and two weeks to create a new one. Officially I will be breaking my fast food habit October 4th, 2009.

I am getting my own new Camera tomorrow!

2009-09-16T17:26:00.000-07:00

Call it an early present from Rich or you can call it a replacement for the one I lost only this time it is an actual camera. It should arrive tomorrow so everyone should expect new pictures of me tomorrow and pictures of things that help to motivate me. ( just a warning) :) Watch me shrink!!! :) :) :)

"MissKelli"

2009-09-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

I walked today, used my brain and walked some more. Okay, the brain part is a little bit of a stretch as I walked to a local school 30 minutes walking distance from my house and for the next 30 minutes I made sure 3 kids knew the difference between upper and lower case letters. 2 did one was having some trouble. Then after I was done I walked home.
Walking with a purpose besides weight loss...now that's what I call...Killing two birds with one stone. :) No pun intended!!

2009-09-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

For 12 bucks yesterday I bought myself a brand new dress from Marshall's. Lets just call that a splurge...for me, that is a lot to spend. I love the dress, it feels good to the touch, it is light weight...I can use it in so many other aspects in my life. It was a good find. One of the many things I have been learning while working this program is that by loving myself I am loving everyone else too. You have got to take care of #1 first before anything else. #1 can be a higher power or just yourself...right now, I am still caught in the middle of that. GOD or Myself. If God equals Love then Loving myself = God. Does that make any scents? It makes perfect scents to me. And while I get to know "Jehovah" through my study's I also get to know myself a little more each day.

quicksand...please don't let me "Fall" now!

2009-09-12T04:05:00.000-07:00

Today I feel my legs are in quicksand...and 10 miles away lies my next goal...its a small one but I know I can at least reach it. My goal for the month is, walking with old friends from high school and seeing the scale go from what it is now to 199lbs. It sounds like I am taking on a lot but if I could just drop 15 lbs by the 1st, I will have made it for the summer. O.k. maybe I can call this my long term/short term-ish goal.
The meds seem to be winning over my mind...(making me feel lazy) this is where I need the motivation. My doc kinda sorta in his own little way, urged me to take the weekend to sleep...I got 8 hours last night, on one more pill I take at night. I think this is the first time this month and last month that I got more then 6 hours. It is amazing how just sleeping makes me feel. I had forgotten. I would like to think all the girls publicly for there support. All my friends for there help...you know who you are and if you don't I am talking about you. As long as I have my girls, I will be alright. By the FALL I want to be at least 10lbs lighter then my current weight. September 22, 2009. We will be welcoming Fall.

meds and me

2009-09-11T14:20:00.000-07:00

I went to see my Dr. today (mental health) and got put on another drug. It is very frustrating but at least this new one...ABILIFY...doesn't cause weight gain. I am glad to be getting the help I need and I continue to be very positive about my daily workouts...I hope to try something new today at the gym. I am not going to let this new fact be my excuse...I am going to get back up and continue forward.

2009-09-10T12:02:00.000-07:00

A side view with my frogs...This was 5 days ago...when I get a camera I will take an even newer picture...WATCH me Shrink...my belly!

2009-09-10T11:56:00.000-07:00

This was me on the 5th of September...that is Joey, she works out with me! Just from looking at myself, I know I have even changed from that picture. I am going to have to borrow a camera again and take more. I had to make it black and white because my eyes looked like my cats! LOL!!!

Nine

2009-09-09T15:42:00.000-07:00

It is our Labor day and we are gonna go see the movie NINE. Today is 9/9/09 We figure it is appropriate. Let our 3 day weekend began. No food just water or unsweetened tea for us. After...the rest is up to your imagination. :) Update... We ended up seeing it the next day and when I say we I mean him...I feel asleep during the movie...That was the first time I did that ever. I guess I better rent it once it comes out. I managed to see the first and last part of the move. This movie was an all CG I movie. That is really all I know about it. :) The outing to another town was fun!

I dropped another pant size!

2009-09-09T13:16:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I plan to try a new workout...eat a new meal I have never tried plus, spread inspiration to one person via, real life,blog life or BOTH. Every time I drop a pant size, I change my workouts..I want to throw my body off. I am cooking tonight...I like everything but I am cooking for one more...any suggestions...those of you who have kids or a very picky man that eats like a kid? I am open to suggestions....I will let you know what I decided. :)

2009-09-05T23:58:00.000-07:00

2009-09-05T18:27:00.000-07:00

In this picture I thought I would look smaller...nope...this is the picture that made me want to change my lifestyle for good...NO MORE EXCUSES!!! (watch me shrink)

This was me last October....

2009-09-04T18:30:00.000-07:00

Let the motivating begin...

2009-09-04T18:21:00.000-07:00

This is my motivation frog I call her Mo. If she helps you in any way let feel free to download the picture...she wants to help all the people she can.

Inspired by Excuses begone

2009-08-10T21:47:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, my name is Kelli and I would like to take you on the journey that is my life. Right now I am tackling my health. Physical health, right at the moment. I am learning I can do a lot I didn't think I could do and I am loving every minute of it. More later...